I've been growing a beard lately.
I can't say why exactly ... it started at the time wife shaved her head. It's an effort to change my look a little bit too ... I suppose a way to disguise oneself ... at least until it becomes the norm. In some ways it's an assertion of masculinity brought on in some small way by that event. It's something that I've been thinking of doing for awhile anywise. I've never done the beard and the long hair combo before ... could make for a good Halloween costume this year.
I'm hoping it may have a therapeutic function, after all it will be the shedding of the beard that will important as well. It's been a tough year: too much time in hospitals, cancer, heart attacks & death. Too much work. Not enough art. Politics. As I go into the final quarter of this year I look forward to collecting the experiences of this past year, good or ill, and gleaning whatever wisdom I can from them and discard the negatives. The beard charts my aging, something I've developed mixed feelings about. In some ways I embrace it: the wisdom it can bring. But I'm not sure if I'm aging well ... there is a difference between aging and growing old. I'm aiming for the former. Some people shave beards in times of mourning ... I'm hoping for the opposite: to shave for a new beginning. I hate to use the term 'born again' ... rather it's more of a detox or polish. I don't want to be born again ... I've already been born & I don't think I could stand the diapers at my age.
Now, what about Halloween?
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I've never done the beard and the long hair combo before ... could make for a good Halloween costume this year."
Just don't start turning the water into wine -- makes the other guests nervous.
"Too much work. Not enough art."
Amen. The important things in my life can be broken down as: Family, friends, and photography. Everything else is just filler.
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